Little Miss Universe

Before finding and reading my father’s letters to my mother, I only knew her side of the story, the letters she had written to him. They painted a picture of a young woman who was frightened, pregnant, and in love, or maybe more infatuated than in love. I think she had built him up in her mind as someone larger than life. My mother never wanted the small town, farm life future that had been set up for her. She had every advantage…loving parents, sister twenty years older, and friends who supported her. But at eighteen, she left college and fled to New Orleans to dance on Bourbon Street. That’s where she met my father. By nineteen, she was pregnant. Her letters from that time are full of insecurity, uncertainty about her future, about whether this man she loved could provide stability, or even stay. Friends wrote to her, encouraging her to be strong and independent, reminding her of everything she had going for her. But her tone, again and again, is one of apology and self doubt. There’...

Her entire life, Lois Burak was told her family’s story could be a true-crime series, the  kind that starts with ambition, controversy, and ends in tragedy. Chasing Howard follows the connection between that past and her own pursuit decades later: the behind-the-scenes journey of creating The LoLo Show, an internet radio program built with one goal in mind to earn a place within the Howard Stern universe. Told through archival footage, family letters, and firsthand interviews, Chasing Howard connects a father’s battles for truth with a daughter’s search for belonging. It’s about the cost of speaking up and the weight of inherited chaos told with satirical humor sprinkled throughout to balance the darkness with wit and perspective. The series traces how the scars of survival play out in real time and how the same battles still surface in new forms today. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Who knows what causes the pull of attraction. Is it metaphysical? I’m not talking abou...